GOT A BROKEN EGO

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G O D

_{where should I start? where should I start?}

I do not even know where to start.

_{where should I start? where should I start?}

_{where where where where where where where where where where where where where}

_{where where where where where where where where where where where where where}

_{where where where where where where where where where where where where where}

? ? ? ? ?

? ? ? ? ?

? ? ? ? ?

B r u  t A l

? ? ? ? ?

? ? ? ? ?

? ? ? ? ?

( it is brutal out of here )

They would all be so disappointed because who am I if not exploited? Where is my fucking dream? If someone tells me one more time

"ENJOY YOUR YOUTH,"

I am gonna cry. I do not stick up for myself. I am anxious, and nothing can help. I wish I had done this before. All I did was try my best, this the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset. Ego crush is so severe.

I KNEW FROM ( THE START )

THAT IS  EXACTLY

,, HOW YOU WOULD LEAVE ``

BY MY ETERNAL SADNESS.

——— I DO NOT WANT YOUR SYMPATHY ————

stupid 

emotional

obsessive 

I JUST WANT

,, M Y S E L F ,,

. . . enough? 

Am  I

 . . .enough?

little

me

 B A C K. 

R E S C U E

_{HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME}

_{HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME}

_{HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME HELP ME SAVE ME}

M E

YOU ALWAYS SAY

I AM NEVER

NEVER NEVER NEVER

NEVER NEVER NEVER

NEVER NEVER NEVER

( SATISFIED ) 

——— AM I?

I do not think it is true, because

all I have ever wanted was to be

.

.

.

enough.

,, SOMEDAY I WILL BE EVERYTHING TO SOMEBODY ELSE ``

BY MY CHILDISH HOPE.

THE THINGS YOU DID . . .

JUST TO CALL ME Y O U R S.

USE ME AS AN ALIBI — YOU CROSS YOUR HEART AS I CROSS THE LINE

Every time a siren sounds

I wonder if you are around

_{WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU?}

_{WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU?}

_{WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU?}

Because you know

I would do it all again.

(Bitter)(sweet) to think about

THE DAMAGE

that we do.

DO YOU LOVE ME?

_{( I say that I hate you )}

DO YOU WANT ME?

_{( with a smile on my face )}

DO YOU HATE ME?

DOE-EYED AS I BURIED YOU . . .

_{LOOK AT ME. LOOK AT YOU. LOOK AT US.}

_{LOOK AT YOU. LOOK AT ME. LOOK AT US.}

_{LOOT AT U S. LOOK AT U S. LOOK AT U S.}

,, I HOPE I WAS YOUR FAVORITE CRIME ``

BY MY HURTFUL PRIDE

 WHEN THE CLOUDS ARE IRONED OUT

AND THE MONSTERS CREEP INTO YOUR HOUSE

AND EVERY DOOR IS HARD TO CLOSE

Well, I hope you know how proud I am you were created with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred. I hope you took your bad deal and made a royal flush. I do not know if I will see you again someday . . .

but if you are out there,

I hope you are

( ( ( O K A Y ) ) )

Tell me,  are you okay?

Tell me, are you loved?

Tell me, are you safe?

P.S. God, I hope that you are happier today

Because I love you, I hope that you are okay. ♡

Супер, тогда есть шанс хоть какой-то

отписываюсь, чтобы с вами ситуацию смотреть

_{kth 10 августа 2020 в 7:18:19 написала в shadow of associations}

_{Ф И А Л К А}

_{Фиа́лка (лат. Víola) — род растений семейства Фиалковые (Violaceae).}

_{Известно около пятисот(по некоторым данным — более семисот) видов,}

_{растущих преимущественно в Северном полушарии — в горах и в регионах с умеренным климатом.}

_{kth 18 сентября 2020 в 16:11:07 написала в shadow of associations}

_{— S E I T O —}

_{тони пуля в зубах 20 мартa 2021 в 16:47:42 в 11:01:51 написала в ­karma coma}

? _{i'd need your heat right next to me}

love is a fool's game. if i could let it go i'd show a side of me that you'd never know. so if we're gonna play don't take it personal.

_{тони пуля в зубах 26 мартa 2021 в 3:14:32 написала в ­karma coma}

_{SEITO'S PERSONAL TRACKLIST:}

_{—— when your memories hurts. don’t expect yourself to always be happy. longing for something or somebody is not weakness, you’re just processing it. you’ll be okay.} 

_{my least favorite life — lera lynn [x]}

_{small hands — keaton henson [x]}

_{mary — big thief [x]}

_{slip away — perfume genius [x]}

_{another love — tom odell [x]}

_{autumn — paolo nutini [x]}

_{do i wanna know — hozier [x]}

_{skyfall — adele [x]}

_{oats in the water — ben howard [x]}

_{meet me in the woods — lord huron [x]}

_{mifuyu 24 октября 2022 в 16:01:14 написала в Nothing special}

_{yellowhearts 24 октября 2022 в 20:27:27 написала в Nothing special}

_{seito NOW listens to TIFFANY YOUNG - HEARTBREAK HOTEL (FEAT.SIMON DOMINIC)}

_{"Can you predict what will happen next?}

_{The vain expectations you sometimes gave me}

_{Even if I think of you, forget you}

_{In the end, I forgive you}

_{Go back to reality}

_{I want to awaken from this dream of you}

_{My love that poured out to you}

_{It shined because it was you"}

_{[ LISTEN HERE ]}